Christmas is behind us and New Years is approaching. This time of year is usually a time of self reflection and resolution making for me. But this year is different. The anticipation of this new year brings a new level of anticipation and nerves as my book is being released and I am about to embark on new territory - speaking engagements and being open to criticism. I often find myself taking deep breaths and whispering to God "Please be with me." I am nervous and I am anxious. Both of which I think have contributed to the fact that I lost my voice and a week later it still hasn't returned to full function.
Even though I don't have a final copy of the book, there is a case being sold at Urbana right now where thousands of passionate, mission-minded, college students have access to it. I sit at home nursing a sore throat and cold nervously wondering if it will sell and then more concerned that if it does will it have the desired effect I hoped when writing it. All my insecurities will be challenged this new year.
Truth. Humility. Grace. Perseverance. Wisdom. Joy.
This will be my constant prayer for 2013.
What will be yours?